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  • Writer's pictureDenishea Young

Where Have You Been?

Updated: Mar 24, 2021

Hello


So you may have been wondering where have I been. Let me tell you Mars is quite windy this time of year….





Naw I just joking


Mars is windy all the time.





Yeah but for real. I haven’t kept to the schedule I said I was going to do. Why you ask? Because for me it’s just not do-able. I work a full-time job. By the time I get home, eat dinner, feed my partners (Papito and Pedro) and prepare for tomorrow I’m tired. So tired that I will sit down in front of my computer and wake up hours later with a crick in my neck and the letters ajfdlkssssssssdklja;;;;;;;;;;a repeated over and over.




I tried forcing it by staying up to 3:00 am two days in a row. It simply put is not sustainable. All it leads to is me being extremely goofy at work





and crashing when I get home.




I was frustrated for a while wondering why I was having so much problems doing what others seem to do easily. Well ladies and gentlemen and alien visitors (I see you 477zzztpt!) that was one of my errors. Comparing myself to others. As life has shown me time and time again. I am not them and they are not me. I don’t know what struggles they are going through and they don’t know mine. I can only live my life the best way I can.


So after crashing. Finally getting some sleep, taking a step back and realizing that I can not keep running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off. I decided that I need to implement some changes. First and foremost no comparing myself to others. It doesn’t help anything and just ends up making myself feel bad. Second, something has to change. Third, remember what is most important to me.


So what does that all mean. I am changing my posting schedule. It wasn’t working and all it did was stress me out. Make me feel like a failure for missing deadlines and lose sleep. So instead I will be changing my schedule to a more monthly basis. I will aim for two posts per month. With random ones here and there. My blog is called Ruminations after all.



As for posting works. I hated that I felt rushed to put out my works. I like to refine my works, polish them as best I can until they feel right in my soul and then show the world. I can not do that with the schedule I had. So instead I will be aiming to post at least one work per month. I have no doubt that there will be more than that. For now through I am aiming just for that. So when I get to the point that I am able to increase my time and writing I have already developed the basic skills.



Lastly remembering what’s important to me. My end goal is to be a published author. Who is able to make a living from writing. I want to get there sooner rather than later. However in writing my goal one determination that I have is to NEVER sacrifice my writing integrity for money, clout or fame. I am writing to share my work because I want my voice to be heard. To maybe inspire someone to dream big or just help someone see that they are not alone with their struggle with dark thoughts. I can not do that if I am worried about deadlines, feeling like a failure and not getting enough sleep.


Yeah, so that’s where I have been getting my stuff together. So that I could figure out my next steps and share them with you.


I am not sure if anyone will read this blog or even care. (I really hope someone cares.) But I am going to keep going regardless. So while it may be a little spotty now; know that I haven’t given up on my goals and aspirations I might just be taking a little time to redirect. In light of this I have created a Facebook page. Click here to check it out and join:



Now I am going to be honest. I am not a fan of Facebook so I will not be posting on there daily. Just occasionally mostly to say something along the lines of “Hey I just wrote this Awesome story” or “Hello All I just created this seriously cool artwork for no particular reason and I wanted you to see.”


Essentially it will be just a method for those who want to keep up with my latest works to be notified when I have posted, written and/or created artwork. If you are interested you can send a friend request at Denishea Young. I will accept. However…..


Creepy and/or rude behavior will get you blocked. I do not have time for that in my life. So if that is you then keep on trucking to a different indie writer’s site.


In the meantime I will be posting a new short story this Friday. It’s called Tiggertown’s Daily Crime Report (It has absolutely nothing to do with Winne the Pooh).




If you would like a laugh check it out. I’m thinking of making it into a series.


Leave a comment below letting me know if you like that idea.


I hope you all have a great day!!!


Also, Yoga still helps. Really try it sometime.



Next Big Blog Post: Dictators why do they stay in power?

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